Entry #2 (several months later)

Dear Lord,

I can't help feeling the weight and despair of not being the man others would call a man of God. My heart is burdened because although I strongly desire to be in your will, like an unruly child I choose what is not right. Please cleanse me, oh Lord. Purify me from all impurity and make me more like you: Loving, Caring, Obedient, Considerate, Strong, Beautiful. I need you, because I know that I cannot accomplish what is good on my own. I long for true joy, your joy, again.
Love,
David